My heart drops into my stomach
It's been so long since I've seen that beautiful face
Weeks without being blessed by your presence
Why do i have to be so far away

When I hold you
The seconds slip away
I reach out to grasp them
But still the time fades

W hen I am away
Chasing a selfish dream
The seconds feel like days
Because with you my heart stays

I can't keep my head above the surface
The weight the pressure on my lungs
Is too much for me to endure
With every day that goes by
I wait to have you by my side
How could I be so blind

The seconds
The minutes
The hours
The days
Where are you to take my breath away
I can't handle the time I spend away from you
And they call this a dream come true?

When I hold you
The seconds slip away
I reach out to grasp them
But still the time fades

And when I am away
Chasing a selfish dream
The seconds feel like days
Because with you my heart stays

I can't keep my head above the surface
The weight the pressure on my lungs
Is too much for me to endure
With every day that goes by
I wait to have you by my side
How could I be so blind
Thinking about myself the whole damn time

You ask me why I haven't been myself in so long and Darling, if we are being honest the answer is so simple, yet much to difficult to even begin a weak attempt at some sort of explanation.

You see.. My love, I haven't been myself for a very long time, growing more and more afraid every day. Filled with a fear that the man you fell in love with is gone, like the smile in your eyes when you tell me you love me.

I mean, maybe somewhere DEEP inside there may be a small flicker of hope that the writer of these words isn't yet an empty capsule. But, honestly I stopped holding onto the possibility that there could be any life left within me, the same way you stopped holding onto me when we sleep at night.

The seconds
The minutes
The hours
The days

I can't keep my head above the surface
The weight the pressure on my lungs
Is too much for me to endure
With every day that goes by
I wait to have you by my side
How could I be so blind
Thinking about myself the whole damn time

I used to be a somebody!
I used to have so much... hope
But hope DIED somewhere around the same time that I sang the last lines.

And they call this a dream come true?
Don't worry baby
I'll be home soon