Oh what I would give To have a few last words To see you walk through that door once more I was not the brother That I should've been Why did you call me family When I acted like less then a friend Will I ever see you again Or will I carry this guilt with me to the end Open your eyes I just want you to see me The days and weeks are passing by I can't open my eyes This is all just a nightmare And distantly I hear you voice But I have no choice I cannot escape from here I hope you know how proud I am of you For the man that you've become I may not have shown it But I promise I felt it And now I'm you have a safe journey home Are you ever coming home Open your eyes I just want you to see me The days and weeks are passing by I can't open my eyes This is all just a nightmare And distantly I hear you voice But I have no choice I cannot escape from here The days and weeks are passing by I can't open my eyes This is all just a nightmare And distantly I hear you voice But I have no choice I cannot escape from here Don't fade away I can't carry this guilt to the grave Open your fucking eyes It can't be time to say goodbye It can't be time Is this goodbye Wake Up Open your fucking eyes This can't be time Wake Up

Bah ah black sheep Have you any wool I'm sorry sir But all I have are dark thoughts inside my head They are tearing me apart Showing me the worst of me And telling me That I have fallen to far They are tearing me apart Showing me the worst of me And telling me That I have fallen to far A liar and thief I am the worst of these A liar and thief I am the worst of these Can you please save me from myself All that I have become It cannot be undone I am in need of your help They are pulling at my hair These demons they are everywhere Tell me dear God Are you near I can't keep up These lies are taking so much out of me Drowning in the reality Of what I have done A liar and a thief I am the worst of these A liar and thief I am the worst of these Can you please save me from myself All that I have become It cannot be undone I am in need of your help Now I am asking from the bottom of my heart If you are real can you save me Cause I can't even save myself Can't even save myself A liar and thief I am the worst of these Can you please save me from myself All that I have become It cannot be undone I am in need of your help CAN'T EVEN SAVE MYSELF

I put my life on hold Step into a role that I wasn't ready for I could not regret a second But then she shut the door I miss you so much You and your mother made me a better man But now I must walk away I've already done Everything I can I can still feel you here And it's getting harder than I let it appear My heart it still holds you near But my brain fights to make you disappear I didn't ask for this For you to mean so much to me And you didn't ask for this For me to be ripped away I still find myself Falling asleep with a night light Not even afraid of the dark I've held your hand for such a short time For such a short time I held your hand A brief chapter is all that we shared But I promise you You will hold my heart forever And that none of this is close to fair But I still care I didn't ask for this For you to mean so much to me And you didn't ask for this For me to be ripped away I still find myself Falling asleep with a night light Not even afraid of the dark I pray for another chance to say sleep tight But we've never been Further apart I can still feel you here I know this isn't fair This was my biggest fear This was my biggest fear

Can't even tell you who I am anymore Watching from the outside I see myself Lying on the floor Or is it a stranger I can't even tell if it's me I need a miracle Someone please set me free Years of giving everything I had to my name Now I stand alone It might not be fair But am I the one to blame I wear my heart on my sleeve Don't even know the real me This is my heart on my sleeve Show me the real me I need the real me I can't handle this another day There has to be another way Take away the pain I'm leaving my heart out on display Lift me up make me whole again I'm a broken glass And I'm sure there are pieces missing Can't even tell you who I am anymore But I can tell you My faith is fading Fading fast Forgive me father But I'm starting to question everything Is this the end or is it the beginning I can't handle this another day There has to be another way Take away the pain I'm leaving my heart out on display I can't handle this another day There has to be another way Take away the pain I'm leaving my heart out on display But I'm starting to question everything Is this the end or is it the beginning Someone please set me free

My heart drops into my stomach It's been so long since I've seen that beautiful face Weeks without being blessed by your presence Why do i have to be so far away When I hold you The seconds slip away I reach out to grasp them But still the time fades W hen I am away Chasing a selfish dream The seconds feel like days Because with you my heart stays I can't keep my head above the surface The weight the pressure on my lungs Is too much for me to endure With every day that goes by I wait to have you by my side How could I be so blind The seconds The minutes The hours The days Where are you to take my breath away I can't handle the time I spend away from you And they call this a dream come true? When I hold you The seconds slip away I reach out to grasp them But still the time fades And when I am away Chasing a selfish dream The seconds feel like days Because with you my heart stays I can't keep my head above the surface The weight the pressure on my lungs Is too much for me to endure With every day that goes by I wait to have you by my side How could I be so blind Thinking about myself the whole damn time You ask me why I haven't been myself in so long and Darling, if we are being honest the answer is so simple, yet much to difficult to even begin a weak attempt at some sort of explanation. You see.. My love, I haven't been myself for a very long time, growing more and more afraid every day. Filled with a fear that the man you fell in love with is gone, like the smile in your eyes when you tell me you love me. I mean, maybe somewhere DEEP inside there may be a small flicker of hope that the writer of these words isn't yet an empty capsule. But, honestly I stopped holding onto the possibility that there could be any life left within me, the same way you stopped holding onto me when we sleep at night. The seconds The minutes The hours The days I can't keep my head above the surface The weight the pressure on my lungs Is too much for me to endure With every day that goes by I wait to have you by my side How could I be so blind Thinking about myself the whole damn time I used to be a somebody! I used to have so much... hope But hope DIED somewhere around the same time that I sang the last lines. And they call this a dream come true? Don't worry baby I'll be home soon

God are the things I keep being told about you true Because if you really give Your toughest battles to your strongest soldiers I would like to retire from your army I cant fight another day And if you really give strength to those Who need it every day Why is mine being delivered In the form of broken hearts and silent tears I shed behind the picture of me Being okay so the love of my life Can keep thinking that I can be strong for her Like plaques on a wall Displaying some great feat We wear our scars in the same way As we walk the streets No shoes on our feet They crack and they bleed But we keep moving forward We keep moving forward Because what lies ahead may be scary But what we are leaving behind is worse And LORD if you really do give your toughest battles To your strongest soldiers When did she enlist Because my biggest battle now Is watching her battle to keep a smile on her face While she gives everything she doesnt have and more To make sure that that little girl That is our entire world can wear the brightest smile And keep thinking everything is alright Everything will be alright Now both of us cant sleep at night.. So we find ourselves sneaking in to her bedroom to see the innocence of her laying there with not one ounce of worry in her entire being. Not one ounce of worry in her entire being. And that peacefullness that radiates off her acts as a salve to heal the wounds we wear as a medal. To heal the wounds We wear as medals They crack and they bleed But we keep moving forward We keep moving forward Because what lies ahead may be scary But what we are leaving behind is worse And if you really give strength to those Who need it every day Why is mine being delivered In the form of broken hearts and silent tears I shed behind the picture of me Being okay so the love of my life Can keep thinking that I can be strong for her So God can you please quench your thirst I don't wanna be strong anymore So God can you please quench your thirst I don't wanna be strong anymore So God please quench your thirst I don't wanna be strong anymore I don't want to be strong anymore